Contemplative

[psyche29]

I got my second issue of my Angels magazine today.

And I read it through, cover to cover. I've been reading it for months, every time we go to Mikey's grandparents' house; so Bunny (Mikey's grandmother) gave me my own subscription for Christmas.

It's always so incredible, the things that prayer can accomplish. You'd think I'd do it more often myself, but it's a very...difficult, I suppose...thing for me to do. Nevertheless, it continually floors me, what faith and hope and love can do. I can only hope that someday I can draw from that well as easily as others can. In the meantime, all I can do is live the best I know how: find the good and the beauty in life and in others, and remind myself often that God has a purpose for me, a plan, whether or not I know what it is.

So I've been a bit contemplative this evening, searching out various things online that fit my mood. And I was on Checkmated, and rummaging through my stories I've marked as favorites, and came across one called "In the Twinkling of an Eye." (Link here: http://www.checkmated.com/story.php?story=8357 )

It's so beautifully written, and the scripture at the end ties the whole thing together. Read it, if you like - and tell me your thoughts.

Or don't. Some things call to me more deeply, more elementally, than they do to others. Either way, it's a good story. ;)

Comments

[superbeffie.livejournal.com]

You'd think I'd do it more often myself, but it's a very...difficult, I suppose...thing for me to do. Nevertheless, it continually floors me, what faith and hope and love can do

Ain't that the truth. Why is it so hard?

[psyche29.livejournal.com]

It's going to sound stupid...but it's difficult to imagine telling someone who looks like me what's going on. It's difficult to picture a man, a human, and unload my problems. Especially when He already bloody well knows.

"...in His image." I want to believe the best of people, to give them the benefit of the doubt - and I usually do. But trusting them with myself, with what I think and feel? Asking for help? Sorry - learned how THAT goes growing up. I know better now.

Am I making sense? I just guess it's easier, somehow, to imagine Him as a lion, or just something not human and flawed, like me.

I suppose more goes into it than that, but I haven't quite found a way to express it in words that don't make me sound like a selfish, whiny baby.

[superbeffie.livejournal.com]

I actually know what you mean. The idea of God as a father... I don't do well with that. Father is not terribly positive in my mind so I am frightened by that thought.
Whenever I see "Faith, Hope and Love remain, but the greatest is love" I can only think that I'm glad that love is the most important because faith and hope kick my ass.
Anyway, I feel you.

[psyche29.livejournal.com]

Whenever I see "Faith, Hope and Love remain, but the greatest is love" I can only think that I'm glad that love is the most important because faith and hope kick my ass.

Word.