Been a while.
Feb. 24th, 2009 10:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
psyche29I don't really have much to say. I just haven't been here much lately - wait. Strike that, reverse it...I haven't been ABLE to be here much lately.
Life's been hectic. Work is insane, and well it should be as I'messentially literally working two jobs. I'm finding out exactly how little my former boss actually did, now I'm responsible for cleaning it all up. It's...disheartening.
I haven't learned how to prioritize yet. I used to know exactly what came first, second, etc. Now it's all a jumble.
If I found a job elsewhere with comparable benefits and at least equal pay, I'd jump at it. And that's unusual for me, because I'm ridiculously loyal and slow to embrace change when it comes to my job.
Our internet connection here at home has been sketchy, at best. I don't get it - we pay for excellent service (high-speed cable internet) along with our cable television. The channels all work just fine, so how can the idiots be daft enough to tell me the internet isn't working well because it's so cold? Two words: "BULL" and "SHIT." *rolls eyes* Tonight is actually the first night in a few weeks that it's been working without a hiccup. So, here I am, boring the lot of you silly.
And then, of course, there's my complete apathy of late. I don't want to go anywhere, to do anything. I feel broken, bogged down by the complete lack of friends I seem to have. Most of the time I'm fine, but sometimes it just kills my brain and my heart that all I have are online friends. What kind of loser am I that all I seem capable of making is online friends? And I can hardly keep those - the one who was going to stay...hasn't, didn't. What am I doing wrong? Is it that I'm whining like this? Should I just shut up and put on my big girl panties and accept that I'm not really meant to have anybody who's just mine, that I'm here solely to be of service to others? Because if so, wow. Nice life. Never thought anyone could be so mediocre - twisted little joke that it happens to be me, right? *rolls eyes*
And now I feel guilty for bitching. Sorry. I'm going to go to bed now and try to sleep off the headache I just inflicted on myself.
For all my pathetic selfishness, I do hope you're all doing well. *hugs*
Life's been hectic. Work is insane, and well it should be as I'm
I haven't learned how to prioritize yet. I used to know exactly what came first, second, etc. Now it's all a jumble.
If I found a job elsewhere with comparable benefits and at least equal pay, I'd jump at it. And that's unusual for me, because I'm ridiculously loyal and slow to embrace change when it comes to my job.
Our internet connection here at home has been sketchy, at best. I don't get it - we pay for excellent service (high-speed cable internet) along with our cable television. The channels all work just fine, so how can the idiots be daft enough to tell me the internet isn't working well because it's so cold? Two words: "BULL" and "SHIT." *rolls eyes* Tonight is actually the first night in a few weeks that it's been working without a hiccup. So, here I am, boring the lot of you silly.
And then, of course, there's my complete apathy of late. I don't want to go anywhere, to do anything. I feel broken, bogged down by the complete lack of friends I seem to have. Most of the time I'm fine, but sometimes it just kills my brain and my heart that all I have are online friends. What kind of loser am I that all I seem capable of making is online friends? And I can hardly keep those - the one who was going to stay...hasn't, didn't. What am I doing wrong? Is it that I'm whining like this? Should I just shut up and put on my big girl panties and accept that I'm not really meant to have anybody who's just mine, that I'm here solely to be of service to others? Because if so, wow. Nice life. Never thought anyone could be so mediocre - twisted little joke that it happens to be me, right? *rolls eyes*
And now I feel guilty for bitching. Sorry. I'm going to go to bed now and try to sleep off the headache I just inflicted on myself.
For all my pathetic selfishness, I do hope you're all doing well. *hugs*
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Date: 2009-02-26 01:34 am (UTC)I miss you too! I was worried you were upset with me when I didn't manage to get those boxes to you! I commented on one of your entries, but can't recall if you replied, so I thought...well, never mind, I'm a dork.
We'd love to come see your place. It'll give me a chance to set up an appointment with the office there and see what's available, if anything. If Dana's not into the idea, that's fine, no worries. If he's cool, then sure, we'll bring the Wii and Guitar Hero and everything, yeah? Let me know. We could even bring, like, Papa Murphys' pizza or something equally yummo.
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Date: 2009-02-26 06:05 pm (UTC)Yes! That sounds awesome!! We can always order out and split the price too. What time works good for you guys? Elaina goes down for a nap around 11:30-1:30 so either before or after that. We could do a early dinner thing too like 3-6 or something.